Why?...

As I'm sitting here listening to this man ramble on about stuff i really don't care about, I'm thinking to myself why am i just sitting here pretending to laugh and smiling when all i really want to say is shut up, i don't care, go away! And then i remember.....

"Being a woman is a terribly difficult task, since it consists principally in dealing with men."
~Joseph Conrad~

So i guess it's my job to just deal with it.

inspiration

Well beth has inspired me to write down all that i was thinking about today. About how i need to get back in touch with my old self. before i became a boring wife/mother haha, theres time for that later. Derek and i used to do the craziest things but suddenly it all changed when we got married and i got pregnant, i guess i kept telling myself that i needed to grow up and be responsible. But what the heck happened?! Im not saying that im not confident in myself because i am, just in a different way. i used to be a lot more spontaneous than i am now, i used tolaugh a lot more, there is this certain laugh that i used to do when i could barely breath, i know it was dereks favorite but i cant remember the last time i laughed like that. I used to be able to laugh pretty much anything off, but now i usually just get irritated (which could have to do with my lack of sleep). Anyways these are just a few of the things that i want to get back from "teenage" whitney.

• Lose 25 pounds


• work out at least 4 times a week


• Finish p90x (this one will be tough)


• Leave the house more! Derek is starting to call me a vampire


• Cook at least 1 meal a week


• Do at least 1 load of laundry a day


• Pay attention to my feelings, if i need Whitney time, tell derek that i need whitney time


• Get back that laugh that dereks loves


• Dont get irritated just laugh it off


• think positively


• Be more open to spontaneous ideas, if derek wants to go to vegas for the weekend, dont plan it out, just go!


• buy a new car (it might help....its a good excuse :))


• The biggest goal of all and most definitely the hardest...go to church every sunday and pay full tithing.

i think if i do all of these things the best that i can i will be more like my old self, jsut with an amazing husband and baby added to the mix :)

where does time go??

Gage was 1 month old yesterday!

Where has my time with my brand new little newborn gone?? He has grown out of so many clothes already, he is getting so long!! Although im glad he is growing and healthy, im still sad he is getting so big so fast.

A growing boy!!

We went to Gage's 2 week check up today! He is doing fabulous! He is getting so much bigger and eating a lot more lately. The doctor was impressed by how well he could keep his head up by himself and by how well he could follow things with his eyes. It was fun to visit all my friends at work and pass Gage around, we were there for 3 hours!! Lately Gage has been awake a lot more during the day, just laying and looking around, which is making him sleep a lot better at night. He still loves to be cuddly which Mom and the Grandmas love. He is still getting the hiccups 3-5 times a day but at least they dont make him mad!